sampahan di minda.

seems like lately im not being myself at all.byk sgt bende happend sampai rase tatau nk bwt ape.haf you ever feel like dat?have your ever feel like u had someone in your life but act in reality you havent. sometimes rase mcm tu. i know some for some reason it happened but isit fair enuf?treating me camtu.i asked myself back.wat act im doing?betul ke ape aku bwt?i even dunno the answer.
sometimes rase u didnt haf anyone to rely on act.

lately all the people dat i loved,cared so much,everyone is avoiding me..ignoring me.mcm aku takde je depan mate.does they know how i feel?i felt lost.sgt sgt.who am i to them?even i think i just had a mental fight wif my sys.sedeh terase marah sume ade tp aku je yg tau how it feel. i know im not a good person to them.mybe evrything dat i did was not right.evn i tried mybest to give everything i had.to make sure dirg happy.feel like awkward gile duk umah.dahlaa afta tis mmg akan duk umah je..myb ill get physco tak lame..

do people change so cepat?supposedly i must realize on dat awl2.arghh..penat.seriously penat.penat evrything yang happened.i know im da person who always simpan2 je if anything happen.i dont know to let it out.apsal eh?i tried mybest nk let it out sume dlm kepale ni to icant.tatau laa..when it come to nk citer to anyone suddenly feel like ape yg nk ckp?seee~mybe im da type yg tak reti nk marah or mengadu or anything laa..*sigh..ntah ape aku melalut dahh..i hate myself rite now.but as a human,mmg ade limits kan?so i just scared that if i go beyond da limits,bende2 yg aku tak suke will jadi..ntahlaa...dah tatau wat to do make myself tenang.
everynite im keep on thinking sampai kadang2 heartbeat laju suddenly.padahal pk ape ntah..byk sgt.dah tak terlarat...
hopefully evrything dat i feel will end soon.cepatlaa..xmampu nk bertahan lg.i tried mybest to be okay.