fullstop?

its done.everything.my happiness?hmm..mybe there's some hope or lights.the end!

the future,BEGIN

just a rite moments.2008,start to begin.the future is unpredictable.this song really touched me and so meaningful laa sgt~so deep meaning die.act a japanese song..but here is the translation...meaning of the song...

Its all right in times when you feel like crying
But hey, don’t push yourself
if your tears run dry, try to smile
See? You’re already smiling

There’s uncertainty in the future
But I won’t give way to its brilliance, I want to have courage

Every day and night with you,
I tightly grasp your hand
Every day every night everywhere,
Our feelings will always be intertwined
Now the story begins

Do you plan to avoid me by you shutting your eyes?
But I love you
If I let you go, the things we've come to understand,
Will be a memory…

I cannot say "goodbye" to yesterday,
These foggy times are just lifeless now

Every day and night with you,
If its only because of this uncalming fever..
Every day every night everywhere,
Our feeling for each other will build up more
Now, you and I begin.

Honestly you’re the same as me
Quivering in the darkness night
But you’re not alone.

Every day and night with you,
I take your hand.
Every day every night everywhere,
Our feelings will always be intertwined
Now the story begins

Every day and night with you,
If its only because of this uncalming fever
Every day, every night, everywhere,
Our destiny will slowly grow up
Now, together we BEGIN.

*Happy New Year 2008!*

...

...a lot of thoughts.dat somehow i scared of.vulnerable.

day by day.

so far..alhamdulillah..im getting better day by day..
last nite...sitting all alone outside..starring the stars ..sangatlah cantikkk..i was amazed.ciptaan allah swt..its been a long time ive never seen dat...sitting all alone outside,wondering everything dat happened to me,thinking wat will happen in 2008 pulak..believe it or not,kite da at the end of 2007.
for me,theres a lot of things happened to me..either good or bad,i know you learned somthing frm dat.i believe it those things.until now.im stil searching for myself.do i achieve wat i want i this year?hahaha wondering for myself.:P
hurmm,fyp tak gerak since aritu..isk ape nk jadi..wat i suppose to do?i want to do it..really but i dun even know how to do..gile ape ntah laa kaann..haishh..duk umah?mcm tak jalan,somehow takut laa if xfullfill the requiremnt nih..isk..nauzubillah..ill try mybest..iallah..

rite now,at da moment i know i cudnt believe dat im listening to korean's song and also japanese's song,which specifically a band called them DBSK or known as Tohosinki in Japan..haha layan dohh lagu dirg..i know they aldy femes in msia.n i know dira aldy loves them since last year kut..isk isk..haha ni org tade keje kt umah...:p ni sume gara2 both if mysis suke sgt laa..haha layankan aje~

so,today somehow it made me happy.i just knew something dat ive wondered a month ago.thank you for telling me dat.=) ill hold on into it.iallah.just give me strength and haf faith.

sampahan di minda.

seems like lately im not being myself at all.byk sgt bende happend sampai rase tatau nk bwt ape.haf you ever feel like dat?have your ever feel like u had someone in your life but act in reality you havent. sometimes rase mcm tu. i know some for some reason it happened but isit fair enuf?treating me camtu.i asked myself back.wat act im doing?betul ke ape aku bwt?i even dunno the answer.
sometimes rase u didnt haf anyone to rely on act.

lately all the people dat i loved,cared so much,everyone is avoiding me..ignoring me.mcm aku takde je depan mate.does they know how i feel?i felt lost.sgt sgt.who am i to them?even i think i just had a mental fight wif my sys.sedeh terase marah sume ade tp aku je yg tau how it feel. i know im not a good person to them.mybe evrything dat i did was not right.evn i tried mybest to give everything i had.to make sure dirg happy.feel like awkward gile duk umah.dahlaa afta tis mmg akan duk umah je..myb ill get physco tak lame..

do people change so cepat?supposedly i must realize on dat awl2.arghh..penat.seriously penat.penat evrything yang happened.i know im da person who always simpan2 je if anything happen.i dont know to let it out.apsal eh?i tried mybest nk let it out sume dlm kepale ni to icant.tatau laa..when it come to nk citer to anyone suddenly feel like ape yg nk ckp?seee~mybe im da type yg tak reti nk marah or mengadu or anything laa..*sigh..ntah ape aku melalut dahh..i hate myself rite now.but as a human,mmg ade limits kan?so i just scared that if i go beyond da limits,bende2 yg aku tak suke will jadi..ntahlaa...dah tatau wat to do make myself tenang.
everynite im keep on thinking sampai kadang2 heartbeat laju suddenly.padahal pk ape ntah..byk sgt.dah tak terlarat...
hopefully evrything dat i feel will end soon.cepatlaa..xmampu nk bertahan lg.i tried mybest to be okay.

when the aura study never come.

its 2:01 am in the morning.supposedly kene study maa..paper tis saturday and sunday.tak bleh blahnye on weekend tu.isk isk..but wat i did is nyusun pics in mylaptop.almost sejam jugak lahh..haha..seriously,teringat all the old days memories..tringat laa kembali sume2 tu..wat i like its dat the memories remains.if you observed balek,all the pics sed somthing diff.even all the faces pun lain dah..people can changed aite?hehe..

suddenly,tis came up.tak lupe,iallah tis is my last semester of study..*but mcm fyp tak abes lg.haha.at tis moment,i wanna cherish the last best moment dat i will haf.seriously sedeh bile pk nk abes blaja.afta tis you face a new life pulak.working enviroment.*kalo laa dah keje..tp tak sebest the moments mase blaja..where u haf group of frens.share the best moments wif others.do silly2 things.
wahhh...sedehnye,bile pk balek..since masuk uniten,almost 4years.a lots of things dat ive been tru.learn from the mistakes.it teach you how to be someone.dats im stil trying to do.*sigh.
watever tings yg happen pun, hopefully wat i haf rite now,iallah will remains till the end.

the friendship i haf.myphycs.mybeloved family who always there.thankyou abah&mama. mylove,for believing in me.fighterzs,who teach me a meaning of life.mymates,sa,pey&others who go tru life wif me,the stupid silly things dat we haf done.hehs and all the people who cheerup mylife.give me the smile on myface.the unforgettable moments and the experiences dat we haf been tru together.im thankful to haf u guys in mylife.
sayang all of you.

bear in mind

"when people sed that they love somebody

they haf to put all their heart to it

many obstacles may come

the things really matters is your heart.."

*from someone that i love da most.*